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No subject. [07 Sep 2010|12:50am]
i am completely and utterly depressed. i have a billion friends and i feel alone. i have the biggest feeling of emptiness and pain and everything in my stomach. i'm only 21 and i feel like this. this is when i'm supposed to be having fun. i can't have fun. i fake happiness so much. every laugh. every smile. i don't wanna be depressed and an angry person, but that's what i am. no one wants me. even the clingest dumbest guy doesn't want me. i'm so use to getting rejected, it's not funny. ya know what? i have facebook and twitter sent to my phone so i can feel like someone wants to talk to me. otherwise, my phone barely goes off. my friends barely talk to me anymore. i hate it. i'm supposedly the best friend everyone has blah blah blah, yet everyone only wants me when they're in trouble or have a problem. i just can't do this anymore.
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Horrible horrible night [04 Aug 2010|03:04am]
[ mood | blank ]

I highly doubt anyone even reads this. Does anyone even go on this site anymore? Nope. That's why I write on here. I can write whatever I want and no one is gonna read it. I could talk about how depressed I am, how worried I am about my grandma, how my family thinks I'm a liar and I betray them whenever I can, how all of the guys I've liked in the past few years are constantly on my mind and how I think about what I did or didn't do to deserve to get screwed over by them, how I think I'm the friend that people secretly hate, how I go numb so I don't feel pain from my past, how I just want to disappear and see if anyone would look for me, how I don't trust anyone because two major people in my life hurt me and broke my heart at the same time, and how I know that I'll be the only one to ever read this. I always take on everyone else's problems and mine get pushed to the side. I stick my neck out for countless people, only for me to get hurt and disappointed. I'm not happy. I fake it every second of every day. The only thing that makes me truly happy is music and even that's not helping lately. I have friends that say they listen and want to help me when I'm upset, but I always have to call them to vent. I call or text them asking them how they are when I know they're going through something. They rarely do it in return. For once in my life, I want to be selfish. I want my friends to know I'm not happy and I have a billion things running through my head, but not one of them will even see this. I take the time to read what my friends write. They couldn't care less what I write. No one does. I want to be a journalist when I get older, but I don't think that's going to happen. I'm not important enough now for people to read so why would I be in a few years? I'll be the speck in the back of their brains, partially clouding up old memories. People tell me they care about me and love me, but I don't always see it, I guess. I just want a sincere thank you or someone to actually listen, but no one takes the time out of their schedule or they're just too lazy or they don't want to bother. They don't want to step in and just listen. So I get to hold it all in and then have random break downs. This is a cycle I've been going through since I was a kid. Whenever I seem to have a problem, no one knows how to handle it. How could I have a problem?! I'm supposed to be the one with all the answers and the one that can figure out any situation and advise people what to do. I'm not supposed to have problems like everyone else. How dare I?! I've given up so much for my friends, family, and sometimes, people I barely even know, and I get nothing at all. Maybe a slap on the back or a quick thank you, but never the same support I give them. I really can't help, but to feel alone. And I'm so sad when I realize that no one will ever read this but me...

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Three Little Words. [17 Jun 2010|12:21am]
Everything changed with three little words:
'I' being the first in the phrase,
A personal message from me to you.
Following up after 'I' is 'love'.
Numerous amounts of thoughts and memories compiled
into one four letter word which is supposed to
convey the feelings and emotions for a person.
And finally, there is 'you'.
You, you, you.
No one will ever compare to you
and my heart breaks copious amounts
whenever my brain realizes
I cannot possibly ever love anyone
as much as I loved you.
The power of these three little words
have done catastrophic damage
to my fresh and gullible heart.
This agony will sustain in me
for all of my days.
Before I put my wretched heart
on my sleeve again,
I will make sure to never let
those three little words utter
from my mouth once more.
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Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage [04 Feb 2010|04:56pm]

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebs - Collage - Morph

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[04 Jan 2010|01:39am]
1. Ever kissed a brown eyed and brown haired person?

2. Can you see a phone right now?

3. What are you listening to right now?
John Mayer.

4. What are you looking forward to?

5. Last thing you ate?

6. What was the last thing you saw on TV?
Ferris Bueller's Day Off.

7. Who was the last person other than family you saw?
Tyler and Timmy.

8. Are labels/stereotypes good?

10. Song stuck in your head?

11. Acoustic or Electric guitars?

12. Do you dance while getting ready for whatever?
I dance all the time.

13. What are you wearing right now?
Tank top and PJ pants.

14. What is the greatest number of people you've been in front of?
A lot. Graduation. Concerts.

15. Have you gone skinny dipping?

16. Have you ever taken a shower while you were drunk?

19. Have you ever made out on a plane?

21. Do you have leadership skills?

22. Can you play an instrument?
I could probably still play my recorder or clarinet.

23. Have you ever sat on a roof and looked at stars?

24. Ever done that while talking on the phone to a boyfriend or girlfriend?

28. Have you recently gotten someone pregnant?
Oh of course.

29. Do you have a boyfriend?

30. What scent are you wearing right now?

31. Are there any animals around you at the moment?

32. Drinking anything at the moment?

33. Ever thought you were going to get married?
When I'm older.

35. Last person who told you they loved you besides family?

36. Favorite time of day?

38. Favorite food?

40. Cat person or dog person?

41. Got a job?

46. Biggest regret?

48. What do you want the most?
Successful life.

49. Do you want children?

50. Are you a lover or a fighter?

51.Last time you had butterflies?

53. How is your mood today?
I'm happy. A little bit of a headache, but oh well.

56. What do you do all the time in a car?
Act like an idiot usually.

57. Do you like anyone?
Eh. Maybe..?

58. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?

59. Who was the last person to make you cry?
Old memories.

62. When was the last time you cried?

63. What is one thing you miss about your past?
Friends I had at Western. The semester I was there. I miss it so much.

66. Is anyone jealous of you?
Doubt it.

67. Has a friend ever used you?

68. Has anyone recently told you that they like you more than as a friend?
Not recently.

69. Who was the last person you drove with?
My momma and Aunt Paula.

70. Why are you filling out this survey?
I'm bored. Extremely bored.

71. What was the last movie you watched?
Ferris Bueller's Day Off.

73. What is something that you want to do within the week?
Go to California <3

74. Who last text messaged you?

75. Who was the last person you hugged?
My mom.

78. Is there anyone you are excited to see soon?
Hopefully my Western friends soon. IAN IS COMING HOME ON THE 16TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

80. Do you use post-its?

81. Do you like gum?

82. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?

84. Has anyone ever talked about you behind your back?

85. Favorite boys name?
I have a lot.

86. Favorite girls name?

87. What are some of your biggest fears?
Heights. Failure. The dark.

88. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

89. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?

90. Are you a player?

91. Have you ever dated/fooled around with a co-worker?
I wish.

92. Asked someone out in the past month?

94. What type of phone do you have?
A crappy one.

95. Name 4 of your favorite things (not people, "things").
Ipod. Pillow. Car. Phone.

96. Is something bothering you right now?

97. What is it?

98. Is there something else you should be doing at the moment?
Yep. Sleeping.

99. If you could have one wish, what would it be?
I'm not saying it. I'll just think it and wish it that way.

100. How is your hair right now?
Really soft. Down and straight.

I was thinking about this past year and how things have shifted again. Sarah and I are closer again and I love every minute of it. We're back to the old best friends I remember. I'm Madelyn's godmother. She has my whole heart. I would do anything for that little girl. Ian left for Afghanistan in August and things haven't been the same. I cry all the time and miss him so much. I want my best friend home. I'm worried about him. He comes home for leave for 2 weeks on January 16. I just wanna give him a big hug and not let go. I miss Joe and Dustin. Life isn't the same without those two guys. Dustin and I had our issues, but I miss our friendship all the time. Joe always knew how to make me laugh and I was thankful for that. I'm pretty sure I was the happiest just sitting in their room, in my black chair, either talking, listening to music, or just hanging around. I miss those days every single day. I wish I hadn't left Western. I rarely get to see the boys. Heck, I don't think I've seen Joe in almost a year. I haven't seen Dustin since whenever Nikki, Jamie, and I went to see his band. That's another thing: Jamie is leaving me for Florida in a day! She'll be gone 'til May! We're gonna go visit her hopefully. NSall is moving to Arizona at the end of January or early February. Everyone is leaving. It's sad. I wish them all the best of luck though. Well, sleep is calling my name. I'll write more later :)
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Happy today [02 Dec 2009|05:47pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Today is probably the happiest I've been a long long time. Ian called me! He's been in Afghanistan since August. I've talked to him on Facebook, but he actually called me today. I was so happy. He called me from a number I didn't know and I almost didn't pick up. I'm obviously very happy that I picked up the phone. We got to talk for about 40 minutes. We talked about people here at home, what we're gonna do when he comes home on leave, and just other random stuff. I miss him so much. It was amazing to hear his voice and to know that he's ok. He comes home in January and I can't wait to give him a great big hug. I miss my best friend. When he gets home, I'm finally gonna get my tattoo that I've been wanting forever. I cannot stop smiling. I only have to wait until January 16th and he'll be home. I'm excited because he'll be home and Katie and Alec will also be home. The four of us together again is going to be a blast. I'm so happy and excited for those two weeks. I hope Katie can come even though she has school. I'll be starting on the 14th. I feel like a little kid waiting for Christmas. This is gonna be the best Christmas present.
The 3 of us last Easter
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Survey [04 Nov 2009|05:49pm]
[ mood | amused ]

:x: name: Beth
:x: height: 5'2
:x: shoe size: 8 1/2 or 9
:x: hair color: Brown
:x: siblings: none
:x: eyes: Blue
:x: high school: Lutheran Westland
:x: jr.high: St. Michael Lutheran Wayne
:x: elementary: St. Michael Lutheran Wayne
:x: hometown: Garden City
:x: favorite place: LA or Orlando
:x: favorite soda: Cherry Coke
:x: game system: XBox
:x: favorite food: Grandma's potato salad
:x: favorite book: Catcher in the Rye
:x: favorite pen: Blue
:x: favorite car: Corvette
:x: favorite animal: Monkeys and Penguins
:x: waterbrand: Aqua 
:x: favorite burger place: Don's Drive-In in Traverse City
:x: favorite hobby: Hanging out with friends and shopping
:x: favorite friends: Sarah, NSall, Jamie, Adrianne, Lenore, Chelsea, Katie, Danielle, Chris, James, and others
:x: favorite vitamins: I don't take vitamins
:x: favorite show: Friends, Gilmore Girls, NCIS, Degrassi, and Saturday Night Live
:x: favorite news: Local and sometimes CNN when my dad watches it
:x: gold or silver: silver
:x: favorite dog: I've had 5 different dogs throughout my life so all of them
:x: favorite shirt: my  blue and black shirt
:x: favorite sport: My favorite sport to watch is basketball or hockey; to play is softball
:x: favorite computer: mine
:x: favorite fruit: Bananas and apples
:x: ketchup or salsa: Ketchup
:x: favorite milkshake: Chocolate
:x: steak or lobster: Steak
:x: favorite color: Pink and black
:x: favorite weather: Thunderstorms
:x: favorite state: California or Hawaii

do you…
:x: have a crush on someone: Yes
:x: wish you could live somewhere else: At times..
:x: think about suicide: No
:x: believe in online dating: Sure
:x: think others find you attractive: I have no idea
:x: want more piercings: Yes in the cartilage of my left ear
:x: like cleaning: Sometimes
:x: like roller coasters: Yes
:x: write in cursive or print: Print
:x: last talked to: Sarah
:x: last thought of: This show
:x: last showered: This morning
:x: last cut your nails: Today
:x: last did laundry: Tuesday
:x: last hugged a tree: I don't remember ever hugging a tree

for or against…
:x: long distant relationships: For
:x: killing people: Against
:x: teenage smoking: Whatever
:x: driving drunk: Against
:x: soap operas: For

have you…
:x: ever cried over a boy: Yes
:x: ever been in a fist fight: Yes
:x: ever been arrested: No
:x: ever had a friend die: Katie Thomas 
:x: ever dated a cousin: I'm not from Kentucky
:x: ever used a gun: At Camp Rotary
:x: ever frenched kiss: Yep
:x: ever finished a puzzle: Yes
:x: ever got surgery: No
:x: ever got beat up: Yes
:x: ever hated someone: Yes
:x: ever made a huge mistake: Yes
:x: ever jogged a mile: Yes
:x: ever played w/ someone’s feelings: Yes
:x: ever had feelings for someone young: Hahaha someone younger by a year or two. Nothing too creepy. 

:x: shoes do you wear: flip flops. slip ons. 
:x: are you scared of: lots of stuff
:x: do you sleep in: T-shirt and pants
:x: did you eat for lunch: Applebee's 
:x: is love: When 2 people feel close to each other and they trust each other with their lives and everything they had. It's not a physical feeling: it's emotional. 

:x: of times I have had my heart broken?: Twice
:x: of hearts I have broken?: Probably none
:x: of girls I have kissed?: Oh nights haha 
:x: of boys I hae kissed?: Wow. A few. 
:x: of guys/girls you've rejected?: Some
:x: of drugs you taken: 0
:x: of accidents you been in: 2
:x: of people you lead on?: none 
:x: of people you broke up with?: 1

do you think you are…
:x: pretty: Depends on my mood
:x: funny: Yes 
:x: hot: Not really
:x: friendly: Yes
:x: ugly: I'm not ugly
:x: loveable: Yes
:x: caring: Yes
:x: dorky: Yes
:x: cocky: No
:x: girly: At times 
:x: boyish: I like outdoors like guys
:x: smart: I try to be 
:x: pimp: No
:x: angel: No
:x: gangster: No
:x: god: I'm not God

:x: five letter word: te amo (it's a phrase but it works)
:x: comedian: Jim Jefferies
:x: candy: Starbursts
:x: cartoon: Peanuts
:x: cereal: Kellogs Vanilla Almond
:x: chewing gum: Orbit
:x: day of week: Friday or Saturday
:x: least fave day: Monday
:x: jello flavor: Strawberry
:x: summer/winter: Summer 
:x: trampolines or swimming pools: Both!

person who last…
:x: slept in your bed: Me
:x: saw you cry: My friends?
:x: made you cry: Stupid stuff. 
:x: spent the night at your house: Adrianne? 
:x: had a drink with you: Sarah and Amy. 
:x: you went to the mall with: My mom and Aunt Donna. 
:x: you went to the movies with: NSall. 
:x: yelled at you: My mom
:x: sent you an email: Facebook. 
:x: told you they loved you: My mom

have you ever…
:x: gotten into a fight with your pet?: I've gotten mad at my dog
:x: said "i love you" and meant it?: Hell yes
:x: gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yes
:x: kept a secret from everyone?: Yes
:x: cried during a movie?: Yep
:x: ever at anytime owned new kids on the block?: Nope; Backstreet Boys FOREVER!
:x: planned your week based on the TV Guide?: No
:x: been on stage?: Yes
:x: dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Yes
:x: had an imaginary friend: I had Sally when I was younger, then my friend flushed her down a toilet
:x: been to New York?: 6 times
:x: been to California?: 10 times
:x: been to Florida?: 6 times
:x: been to Hawaii?: 2 times
:x: been to China?: No
:x: been to Canada?: About 100,000 times
:x: been to Europe?: No but I want to
:x: what time is it now?: 1:27 am
:x: apples or bananas?: both!
:x: blue or red?: Red
:x: walmart or target?: Target
:x: spring or fall?: Fall
:x: what are you gonna do after you finish this?: Watch a movie
:x: what was the last meal you ate?: Arby's. 
:x: are you bored?: Yes
:x: last noise you heard?: My mom's voice on the phone. 
:x: last smell you sniffed?: Food haha
:x: last time you went out of state/province?: This past summer. 

:x: do you believe in love at first sight?: Yes
:x: do you want children one day & if so, how many?: 3 or 4
:x: most important thing to you in a friendship is?: Being honest and caring
:x: have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Yeah.. 
:x: want someone you don't have right now: Yes
:x: are you lonely right now: Yeah it's sad
:x: ever afraid you'll never get married: Depends on my mood
:x: do you want to get married: Hell yes

in the last 48 hours have you…
:x: cried: No
:x: bought something: Yes
:x: said "I Love You": Yes
:x: met someone new: Yes
:x: talked to someone: Of course
:x: missed someone: Yes
:x: hugged someone: Yes
:x: fought with your parents: Yes
:x: dream about someone you can't be with: Yes
:x: had a lot of sleep: No

:x: things you like in the opposite sex: Great eyes and amazing smile
:x: worst feeling in the world: Having no one
:x: best feeling in the world: Love
:x: how many rings before you answer: 2 or 3
:x: future daughter's name: Christine or Brianna
:x: future son's name: Don or Brian 
:x: do you sleep with a stuffed animal: I have a lot of stuffed animals on my bed but I don't sleep with them
:x: if you could have any job you wanted, what would it be: Journalist or teacher
:x: do you type with your fingers on the right keys: sometimes
:x: what's under your bed: A lot of old crap
:x: favorite sport to watch: Basketball or Hockey
:x: location: Garden City
:x: boyfriend/girlfriend: No
:x: criminal record?: No
:x: do you speak any other languages?: Some Spanish
:x: name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: My pictures, clothes, shoes, and my bed
:x: piercings and where?: 2 in my ears and my belly button. 
:x: whom you love: My relatives and my friends
:x: nickname(s): Bethie. BBoo. BStreet. B. 
:x: initials: BCS
:x: how old do you look?: No idea. 
:x: how old do you act?: Sometimes I act my age. Other times I act like a little kid
:x: glasses/contacts?: Glasses to read
:x: braces: Never
:x: do you have any pets?: 2 Dogs and 2 Fish
:x: you get embarrassed?: Sometimes
:x: what upsets you?: Getting in fights and my friends lying to me 
:x: what is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning: More sleep
:x: where do you want to get married: A little nice church
:x: favorite number(s): 13 and 16
:x: what type of automobile do you drive: I drive my Aveo aka my clown car. 
:x: are you timely or always late: I'm usually 2 minutes early
:x: do you have a job: Yes; Angel Food Catering
:x: do you like being around people: Yes
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Long time no write [03 Nov 2009|08:31pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Sooo I wrote out this whole long ass post, but livejournal erased it. I'm pissed. Basically, I'm just gonna be writing in here a lot more. I missed writing on here. It's a outlet for all my stress.  I registered for classes today and got my payment plan set up. I'm extremely happy =D Things are so confusing right now. Friends are getting weird and acting awkward. They're lying and it's pissing me off. Guys are confusing. I liked one, he doesn't like me. Now I like another one and he doesn't make a move, but supposedly likes me. Whatever. We'll see where it goes. I'm supposed to go to lunch tomorrow with Sarah, Ashlee, and Amy. I CANNOT wait to see them. I've missed them all. Well, I'm gonna go finish watching Superbad and have a good night alone. 

Peace, love, and tacos <3 
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Hello. [15 Apr 2007|01:15am]

Spring Break is officially over. 
It sucks. I had some fun. My parents and I went to Niagara Falls
Weather was crappy, but we dealt with it.

So next year, I am going to Western Michigan University 
with Kristine, Vicki, and probably Rachel. Kristine and I 
are going to be room mates. It should be fun. 

I'll write more later. I'm too tired for this.

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Good-bye 2006 [30 Dec 2006|11:43pm]
[ mood | blah ]

so this year has had some ups and downs.
God has blessed me with all that I have and need.
i've gotten closer with some friends and drifted from others.
my grades are basically still the same. i'm happy i don't have a math class.
it doesn't seem like i'm going to college in 8 months. 
i don't even know where i'm going yet.
everyone keeps asking me.
i have no idea. i want to go to Northern or Western.  
my mom wants me to go to Grand Valley. watch. that's where i'll end up.
oh well. i still don't have a job. it's hard to get a job if you're a teen.
atleast my dad still has a job and didn't get laid off. 
my mom is still working as an aid/teacher for preschool kids.
the kids are adorable. lhwl is actually letting us have a snowcoming/snowball.
should be fun. atleast i hope it. homecoming kind of sucked. my date
really wasn't interesting. it's been nice to sleep in again.
i miss my friends though and i kinda wanna go back and just 
get this over with. christmas was fun this year. there weren't
any family fights. i was excited.
that's about all that's going on.
i'm going to sarah's house again tomorrow night.
we'll bring in another year together. 
maybe our last one.
oh and gerald ford died. sad i know. 
and finally, saadam hussien was killed. i was very 
happy last night.

hopefully, 2007 will be good to me.

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Life [18 Nov 2006|03:41am]
[ mood | happy ]

Even though I didn't get to go to the concert tonight, life is great. 
I'm happy. 
My family is loving. 
My friends are good. 
Guys are still confusing, but that's ok. Nothing can be done about that. 
God has blessed me nicely.  
I'm so lucky.
Thank God for my life. 
But the most important thing is I'm happy.

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[16 Nov 2006|10:45pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

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another year.... [25 Oct 2006|02:14am]
time to vent.... this year and past year has brought a lot of changes to my little group of friends. i'm not against change, but it just all happened at once to everyone but me. i'm changing, but not as much or as fast as everyone else. one thing i don't understand is if you have a problem with someone, why not talk to that person instead of telling lies and secrets about them to everyone? that makes you look like an evil person. and if one of your friends likes a guy, would you go after that guy? NO! no good friend would, right? and then you go and flaunt this guy infront of the friend who really likes him? i don't understand how that's being a good friend. it's not, but i don't know how to get that through to some people. more and more of my friends are also getting in stupid fights about stupid things. who cares who's right about something? if you're going to throw away your whole friendship with someone over something like that, you weren't friends to begin with and it was a lie from the start. i have a feeling that some of my "friends" have been lying to me since freshman year. they really didn't want to be friends with me, but they weren't accepted into the "popular" group or whatever other group. so they just kind of meshed into our little "group". and i hate the cliques at lhwl! everyone says "we don't have a clique problem." my ass! of course we have a clique problem! have you ever walked down the halls or looked at lunch? all the "popular" kids sit together and make fun of others and think they're so much better when half of them don't even like each other and are too freakin proud to talk to other people. only this year and part of last year did people actually reach out to other cliques. who is in charge of everything? mostly "popular" kids. it's really annoying. i don't understand why people put other people in power who know they won't do anything. i helped for homecoming decorations and only one of the senior class leaders was there. i don't know why my fellow seniors elected people that had previous committments. it's just a popularity contest. i know someone is going to read this and say "your just whining because you're not popular." no, i'm saying all this because it needs to be said. no one has said this outloud in such a public way. it's really annoying when people lie and when people think that their last names will get them special priviledges. i hate it. people who really work for stuff get pushed off to the side while people who sit on the side and do nothing get the credit for it. of course we have a clique problem and nothing is going to change it because our students are too spoiled. we've been given everything and rarely told no. so why would it stop now?

this was just my vent and rant for the night.. sorry i took it out on here.
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Senior year Baby!! [13 Oct 2006|09:32pm]
[ mood | dorky ]

so senior year has being going well so far. i don't like the freshies but that's to be expected. homecoming game was freezzzing. we lost as usual. ms. lauren was homecoming queen and josh was king. got to see some friends who graduated last year. that was nice. went to the homecoming with jon nagy and some other friends. was quite interesting night. the gym looked good. it was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to bright in there though. after the dance, i rode with kristine and rachel becker to jane's house in milford. had a good talk on the way. met sara, tyler, jessica, and rachel s there. hung out in the basement with the strobe light. had a talk with my buddy amanda. i love that girl to death. played air hockey vs. laura then kristine. lost both matches. i know, pathetic. it was 3 am ok? didn't fall asleep until 5. it was freezing in the room. got up at 8 and went home. now i gotta go eat and leave for the fall concert. everyone should come!!!

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Hello all... [07 Jun 2006|12:22pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

so i forgot i had one of these. i haven't updated in forever. well not much is going on. it's Finally summer.  i have to find a job. i'm going to apply at journey's, lady foot locker, and westland showcase cinemas. i need the money for a car. let's see... Grad was last friday. it's was so weird to know that they're not coming back to LHWL. and when i go back i'll be a SENIOR! i can't wait!  after grad, i had some sweet people over for a bday party for me. julie and vicki gave me a giant badminton set so we were playing that and listening to music most of the time. then on sunday, sarah, c-bay, and i went over to hang at julie's for a lil while. we met geoff up at the movies and saw "the break up" with him. it wasn't a bad movie, but i wouldn't spend my money on it in the theaters. wait until it comes out on dvd. 

this summer is going to be chaos. i'm suppose to.. 
1) get a job
2) find a college i want to go to
3) find out what i want to study in college
4) go visit colleges
5) go on family vacations 
6) hang out with my friends
7) lose some weight 
8) clean the house all the time
9) watch my lil cousin liam
10) do daily chores
11) pay my parents back $200 
12) maybe go to physical therapy for my ankle (damn ankle)
13) and lots more shit that i either want to do or have to do

i have a lot to do this summer and not a lot of time. that's what has been going on soooooooooooooooooooooooo have a good day and i'll update later. 


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[26 Oct 2005|04:27pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

so today was an interesting day. we had a half day today. that was fun. then julie, sarah, and i hung out. we went out to mcdonalds to eat. didn't see any hotties on 10 speeds. then we headed over to target. we played with all the little kid toys. i almost knocked down this huge poster which would have killed probably this older woman standing right there.  that would have sucked. julie and i played catch with these little little gloves. after that we headed over to value world. saw andrea, sam and kayla buying halloween costumes.Highlite of my day- I found a quilting needle! its big and purple! 17 inches! it made my day complete. we headed over to toys r us for no reason. we saw cj and jon skater boarding. we hung out with them for a little while. called geoff. he was still in school. :' (   then we all loaded into sarah's car and dropped off jon, cj, and julie. now i'm home. just waiting for my aunt and unlce to call and say i can go see my grandma. her breast cancer surgery was yesterday. i hope she's ok. tomorrow i have to take weier's make up essay test. yay for me.

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[16 Oct 2005|10:29pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

F . I . R . S . T . S
First best friend: sarah hammer
First car: 1998 Hyundai Accent
First date: im sure it was the movies
First crush: brandon in kindergarten
First real kiss: brad wolfe in kindergarten
First real break-up: never
First favorite CD: backstreet boys
First funeral: my uncle paul
First pet: skippy RIP
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First credit card: never
First love: alex k
First enemy: evalie

L . A . S . T . S
Last cigarette: never
Last car ride: from grandma's to home
Last good cry: today (sunday)
Last library book checked out: i dunno
Last movie seen: in her shoes
Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: pork chops
Last crush: wouldn't u like to know
Last phone call: julie
Last CD played: fall out boy
Last annoyance: some friends
Last disappointment: i think my friends know that one
Last words you said: night mom

F . u . t . u . r . e
Where do you want to go?: spain and hawaii (again)
Your career going to be?: journalist
Where are you going to live?: cali, florida, new york
Do you want any kids?: yes

C . U . R . R . E . N . T . S
Current mood: peaceful
Current crush: prospects
Current clothes: pjs and sweatshirt
Current longing: to talk to someone
Current favorite artist: fall out boy
Current book you're reading: the canterbury tales
Current time-wasting wish: drama
Current word: bung hole

W . H . A . T . S
What's in your CD player?: something corporate
What color socks are you wearing?: none
What color of underwear are you wearing: yellow and blue
What's under your bed?: lots and lots of crap
What time did you wake up today?: 9

Ten People I Enjoy The Company Of: [no particular order]

Five Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
visit all 50 states
meet tim burton
run on the field at a sporting event
get married
go to the effiel tower

Eight Random Things:
cj's pants
EA Games
lake michigan's lobsters

Seven Things On My Mind:
school (GPA)
homecoming sucked

Six things that annoy you:
paper cuts
nosy ppl
scratching your nails on a chalkboard

Five Things I Do Everyday:
brush teeth

Four Songs On My Mind:
edwin mccain-i'll be
fall out boy- dance dance
temptations-my girl

Three Things I Think Of When I Wake Up:
more sleep
five more minutes
what homework didn't i do?

Three Of My Favorite Foods:
cookie dough
taco bell
and the pickles

One Person I Love More Than Any Other:
my grandma


fall out boy- dance dance

i'll be

it's raining men

save a horse ride a cowboy

i'll be

elvis pressly

somebody to lean on


butterfly kisses

i'll be- edwin mccain

it's raining men


save a horse ride a cowboy

anything fall out boy

i just hadn't updated that in a while and plus i'm bored. homecoming sucked balls. it was a waste of my money. at least vicki is ok from her accident.

<3 Bethie

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[04 Oct 2005|04:37pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

why can't people just keep their big mouths shut? if someone tells you something but it really isn't any of your business, why do you repeat it?!?! it only gets people upset! and guess what? i'm not picking sides this time! i learned my lesson with that one a long time ago. why can't people just have fights with each other and not involve other people???????? it drives me nuts! we don't need anymore drama!


anyway, julie, vicki, and i went to cedar point for halloweekends!! mucho fun was had! julie and vicki got scared by a dude dressed as a werewolf. we went on max air at night. OMG i love that ride! i went on the mantis for the first time ever and i LOVED it! we didn't get scared at night. it was fun going down there though. michigan won on saturday! i love U of M! can you say bye bye state? the only bad thing was that the warriors didn't beat north. :'(  the bus ride was not very fun cuz drama was involved. when isn't there drama in my life? my friends are drama filled. i'm going to see waiting with sarah and julie on friday, sarah is spending the night, going to church with me, and then we have to practice @ st. peter's in eastpointe on saturday @ 10 am. we're driving there with allison. plus we got a new student this week. her name is sam fletcher and she's freakin sweet! she's nice and fun to hang around with.



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About you - 500

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[Section 1 - Basics]
Ring size:8
Pants size:
Shirt size:
Shoe size:8 1/2
Hair color:brown
Hair length:shoulders
Eye color:blue
Zodiac sign:Gemini
Chinese zodiac sign:snake
Body type/size:oversize
Birthplace:Dearborn Heights
Place now:Garden City
School and grade/year:LHWL JUNIOR!!!!!
Natural hair color:brown
Blood type:O
Hobbies:hanging with friends and lots of other stuff
I.Q.:i don't know
Do you excercise:yes
Are you healthy:kinda
Pretty?:i think so
Good-looking?:i think so
Beautiful?:y not
Smart?:at times
Charming?:at times
Special?:of course i'm special
Lustful?:over guys
Stylish?:not really
[Section 2 - This or that about you]
Glasses/contacts/none:glasses for reading
Freckles/none:freckles up the ass
[Section 3 - Family]
Mom's name:paulette
Dad's name:alexander
Siblings/their names/their ages:none
Dead family members:too many
Do you live with your siblings?:no
Parents married/divorced/neither?:married
Parents together/separated/dating/none?:together
Do you have any stepparents?:no
Do you have any children of your own?:no
If so, what are their names and ages? If not, do you want any?:no
[Section 4 - Favorites]
Food:mac and cheese, grandma's potato salad
Drink:diet coke and water and milk
Flavor:strawberry or watermelon
Movie:too many
Band:too many
Element:wind and water
Music type:emo/alternative/oldies
Actor:too many
Month:july or october
Season:spring or fall
Holiday:halloween or christmas
Song:omg toooooooooooo many
Number:13, 16
Phrase:GO COUGAS!!!!!!!!
Word:bung hole
Restaurant:Olga's, Coney Island
Sport:Baseball/softball, football, soccer, basketball
Animal:monkey, penguin
Language:spanish and english
Girl's name:Brianna
Boy's name:Brian
Country:usa and canada
Person:any friends or family
[Section 5 - Sex]
Sexual orientation:straight
Are you a virgin?:yes
Do you like to have sex?:virgin
Do you like to have oral sex?:virgin
Do you like to have anal sex?:virgin
Do you like to give more or get more?:virgin
Do you usually give more or get more?:virgin
Does size matter?:virgin
Do you like to kiss?:yes
French kiss?:sloppy
Make out?:yes
Favorite position:virgin
Are you more dominant?:virgin
Or more submissive?:virgin
Are you more sadistic?:
Or more masochistic?:
Do you like to use toys?:ewwwwwwwww virgin
Clothes pins/ clamps?:virgin
Other things?:virgin
Do you look at porn?:no
Do you masturbate?:no
[Section 6 - Friends]
Would you consider yourself a good friend?yes
Would you rather have a lot of friends or a few good friends?:few good friends
Who is your best friend?:Sarah
Do you have a lot of friends?:yes
How many good friends would you say you had?:15
Are you a good friend?:yes
Has anyone ever told you that you were a good friend?:yes
Has anyone ever told you that you were a bad friend?:yes
Do you tend to be more outgoing or shy?:more shy
Do you consider yourself to be better than your friends?:no
Do you consider you and your friends to be better than everyone else?:no
Do you think your friends ever get tired of you?:yes
Do you ever get tired of your friends?:yes
Do you like to make new friends?:sometimes
Do you talk a lot?:yes
Are you nervous when you talk to people?:depends on the person
Do you ever say your someone's friend just to make them feel good?:yes
Do you ever lie about who your friends are?:no
Do you ever play people as friends to make yourself look good?:no
[Section 7 - Love]
Do you believe in love?:yes
Do you believe in love at first sight?:yes
What is love?:a great feeling of care between 2 people
Have you ever been love?:no
Are you now?:no
Have you ever told someone you loved them?:yes
If so, were you telling the truth? If not, would you?yes
Are you married/divorced/neither?:neither
Are you with someone/single/dating/none?:single
Do you believe in soulmates?:yes
Could you ever fall in love with someone of a different religion?:i don't know
Different ethnicity?:yes
Same gender?:no
Different political views?:yes
Do you love certain material possesions?:yes
Certain hobbies?:yes
Your friends?:yes
Your family?:yes
Do you have a crush?:yes
Do you date people just because of how they look?:no
Do you care how people look?:sometimes
Would you date someone who was sweet even if they weren't good-looking?:yes
Would you date someone hott even if they were assholes?:maybe
Would you date someone who was nice to you but asshole to others?:maybe
Would you date someone for their money?no
Would you use someone?:no
Have you used someone?:no
Have you dated someone just for their money?:no
Have you ever dated someone who was sweet but weren't good-loono
Have you ever dated someone who was hott even though they were an asshole?:no
Have you ever dated someone who was nice to you but an asshole to others?:no
Would you ever date someone because you were desperate?:no
Have you?:no
Would you ever date someone for sexual reasons?:no
Have you?:no
Would you ever have an internet bf/gf?:no
Have you?:no
[Section 8 - Politics and such]
Are you a democrat?:no
Or a republican?:yes
Or independent?:no
How do you feel about abortion?:wrong it's murder
Gay marriage?:wrong God looks down upon that
Smoking?:do that if u want just not around me
Marijuana?:do it
Illegal immigrants?:funny mexicans
Premarital sex?:do it if u want
Alcohol?:after ur legal
Death penalty?:yes
Religion in government?:yes
Our president?:good
Downloading music?:yes
Burning CDs?:yes
Welfare?:sometimes; depends on situation
Animal testing?:no
School uniforms?:noooooo
One nation, under God?:yes
[Section 9 - Religious beliefs]
What religion do you practice?:Lutheran Missouri Synod (LCMS)
Have you ever practiced a religion besides the one you practice now?:no
Has someone ever tried to force you into believing certain things?:no
Has someone ever tried to force you to practice another religion?:no
Do you go/have you been to religious gatherings?:yes
What religion are your parents?:Lutheran Missouri Synod (LCMS)
Do your parents care if you practice the same religion as them or not?:yes
Do they know what religion you practice?:yes
Are you open about your beliefs?:yes
Have you ever lied about your religious beliefs to look cool?:no
Do you believe a superior being exists/ existed and created life?:yes
One God?:yes
Many Gods?:no
Does God(s) have a gender?:God the Father so yeah male
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party [10 Aug 2005|04:54am]
[ mood | giggly ]

hello there. i haven't updated in awhile. how are your last 12 days of summer going? mine are fun. last night and as we speak, a party is taking place. well here's my schedule.

1-Advanced Algrebra (too early in the morning)
2-Concert Choir
3-Study Hall with Weier
4-Spanish 2
5-Advanced Bio
6-US History
7-English 11

i asked gieschen if i could switch my study hall and bio. he hasn't emailed me back so i don't know if that will work out or not yet. no one i've talked to has advanced bio 5th hour. everyone has it 3rd. hopefully i can switch. well gotta go finish my shirt and watch girl interuppted (great movie by the way). everyone pray for the people that were in that plant explosion last night on wayne and van born.

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